For LInda

I remember your visits

when I was young

from the land of make believe

west coast

I idolized you so

pre-teen, to your teens

my older cousin

Linda.

Friendship did not find us

until the mid, more settled time

in our lives

 

You finishing trucking school

moved in, down south

and I, married to a long hair

came twice yearly, for nascar

and reminiscing

and

christmas cards

late night talks

from somewhere, on winding road

i do miss that

I’ll miss that

i miss you

 

I knew you would drift from this world

pass away

without me around

i would never have been ready

you knew that

And in caring for you

i knew your pain

and long you suffered

and now your spirit is free

Linda, my family

my friend

through these tears

I’ll yet you go

until our spirits are togeher

someday

again…

 

cc Elyse Bontager

 

~ For my dear friend, and cousin, who passed away after a long illness, Monday, December 4, 2017 ~

 

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Re-Learning Home

Thoughts

unsettled

twisting. Up

against the wall.

After,

the storm.

Welcomed escape.

Momentarily sheltering,

this fog.

Heavy as hell.

Knowing.

For peace sake-

I swallow words,

so many

many words.

Crammed full.

For need

aching bottomless.

Must re-learn.

Home.

Walking through,

emotions

seeking familiar.

Motions, 

of another time.

Squeeze myself

down.

The significantly less

version,  myself

struggle without

Comfort, now

I remember.

Home.

 

cc Elyse Bontrager